A Bigger World, A Draining World: A Coda

(NOTE: Based on time elapsed since the posting of this entry, the BS-o-meter calculates this is 14.472% likely to be something that Ferrett now regrets.)

It was twenty-one bitter degrees out when I went for my walk today, and the wind chill seemed determined to blow every one of those icy gusts straight up my pajama pants.  Gini had gone back home to get her phone, telling me to go on without her… but that was half a block ago, and I wasn’t sure if she was coming back.  I took tiny steps with my sneakers; each step was treacherous, with snow, ice, unexpected slopes.  My hand ached with cold because I had to clamp my hat to my head lest a gust of wind carry it away, my knuckles turning white. If I fell, I didn’t know anyone would come to get me.
And that block.  It went on forever.  A sidewalk that was an endless series of concrete squares, houses that took five minutes to shuffle past, landmarks an eternity away.
I kept walking.  Putting step after step down.
You’re larger, motherfucker, I spat in the world’s icy teeth.  You threaten to swallow me.  But I’m gonna walk you down to size.  One step at a time is how I master you.  Each step makes you smaller.  Makes you mine.
I kept walking.  Alone.  Unaided.


  1. Mary Turzillo
    Feb 4, 2013

    Ferrett, you gotta dress warmly! This weather will make you miserable if it doesn’t outright try for manslaughter! Mittens, not gloves! Preferably sheepskin mittens, feather-down if you’re a vegetarian, which I don’t think you are. Tie the hood up so it won’t fall down. Wear a baklavah under it. Wool sweater under the parka. Good socks, maybe wool, or maybe some kind of fancy thermal ones. Good boots, with good traction. A walking stick is not too much precaution. Do not let this awful weather have its way with you!
    And take your cell phone!!!

    • Mary Turzillo
      Feb 4, 2013

      A scarf over your mouth and nose would be a good idea, too. This weather is not good for humans. Seriously.

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